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April 04 2011
Seasons
Winter
...is really cool. I like winter. The snow, the lack of heat and light, the short days and long nights, it's quite awesome. And with Christmas, of course the best time of the year is in winter.
Fall
I know, some people talk bad about fall, but I welcome it every year. It's a time of new hope after enduring the most painful months of the year, ready to start the aforementioned season.
Summer
These are the most horrible few months of the year. The heat is torturing whatever poor soul needs to go outside. The brightness of the sun hurts my eyes. The thick air makes it hard to breath.
Spring
But by far the worst part of the year is spring. It's the time when everyone else is happy. Everyone else is looking forward to summer (for whatever reason). Everyone else sees it as a ray of hope after months of darkness.
Don't get me wrong, I like spring days, the calm temperatures and the dim brightness of the sun, like the next guy. But for me, it marks the end of the good times and the beginning of the horrible ones instead of the other way round.
Spring is my time for depressions and feeling lost. Sure, I'm having these feelings all year, but in spring, they hurt more than usual. Where will I ever reach? Where did I come from? Nowhere. I'm walking on the spot.
So?
The worst part is that it's my own fault. I don't have to be that way. I don't have to be lonely. I knew I chose it. In fact, I'm glad I chose this path. But every few weeks, the thought raises its ugly head upon me, and I hate myself again.
And in spring, I can't even blame it on the weather.
